Jax had some issues today at a birthday party regarding peanuts - well,there were not actually any peanuts there but he refused to eat the pizza then was freaking out when people were eating the birthday cake around him. I think I need to get him some help but Stephen is against it for the moment. He thinks we can handle it but I am not so sure. I feel like such a failure as a parent that I cannot ease Jax's worry, anxiety and pain. It was so sad to see him at the party when I went to pick him up. He was sitting there with a blank face and cringing slightly when anyone came near him in case they touched him because they ate a cake that was "manufactured on the same line as peanuts". It really breaks my heart. Frig, I hate this!